In case you missed to understand what I tried to convey once again,
Let me speak my heart out loud for you then…
Reaching out every so often, calling first, remembering every single detail to let you know I care.
Was it too much to ask for a single reciprocation, O’ life why have you been so incredibly unfair?
If I could be like just everyone else with respect to treating others…trust me, I would.
Sadly, people matter, and they hold more power over me than I think they should.
Now I feel defeated, like it was just not worth it in the end,
I still have a corner in my brain filled with all the texts that I persuaded myself not to send.
Well, there is always someone around, you know, family, friends and more…
But somethings are missing, the unconditional love, the equation, the efforts as before.
Maybe my expectations were naive and attempts to save the thread superfluous.
Sometimes we willingly give the wrong people, the very best version of us!
And when I finally tried I realized, it is easier to force myself to walk away,
than relentlessly convincing someone else to stay.
After all that was said and done, after so many bridges were burnt,
At the very least there is the peace in me that I left no stone unturned.
Something precious came out of the gloomy seasons that are gone…
the strength of my vintage heart…
and the grace I gained in learning to live a fairytale while walking alone.
